Fear leaks from my dark heart like thick, black poison, rendering me immobile. I am paralyzed by my fear. I am faced with several major decisions in my life right now, and I cannot decide, because I'm too afraid of making the wrong choices. As always, I hide, I avoid, and I put off deciding until I am forced to. As always, I hate myself for not having the courage to take action. Once again, I let fear chain me to the floor in a dark room, and I am the heart of that darkness. I have no-one to blame for my incarceration but me.
It's hard not to feel helpless and stupid and cowardly. It's hard not to sink into despair again. I'm trying not to let the darkness of my heart consume my life once again, but I feel paralyzed by fear and despair. I know I could improve things if I could just take action, but what to do? Which path to take? And what if it's the wrong one?
I am lost in a forest at night. I'm too scared to try to find my way out, for fear of going down the wrong path, so I stand still, alone in the darkness, paralyzed.
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